Back Again!

I have been systematically poisoning myself the last two weeks with medicine that was supposed to make me feel better, but in the next three days that will all be behind me and hopefully I can get back to my blogging routine (as well as just getting on with my normal life again).

In the meantime, much love to my family who on two separate occasions had to pick me up from work because I was too sick to drive, took care of me while I was with them, and then drove me back to Ohio to get my car so I could go to work the next day. Much love especially to my mother, who doted on me and called every half hour when she couldn't be there. In the last two weeks I've missed 3 and 1/2 days of work, lost almost 15 pounds, thrown up at work like a pregnant woman in a bad comedy, and experienced "brain shocks" (a particularly fun side effect that you should always avoid. always).

Much love to my Millwood family, who have been so tolerant and supportive. My boss basically refused to allow me to use vacation days even though I've been sick so often, and my coworker brought me a blanket so that I could lie on the floor and prop my head up (there's been a lot of lying on the floor. stupid blood pressure). No one has threatened to fire me, only support me and pray for my health. Months ago our prayer team started praying for me when I got my new diagnosis, which really is a crazy, beautiful, lucky support group I never would have expected to need. I really do work for the best company and the best people.

Much love to my friends, who have checked up on me and continued to remain sympathetic. Having a sick, unhappy friend is a hard thing to tolerate for very long, but again-- they've all been only supportive, even to the point to cheer me on when I didn't think I could take another pill. When I was ready to give up, they were ready with reasons it would eventually be worth it if I could stick it out just another day (and then another, and another...) Kayse even drove all the way to Hermitage to take me to a movie since I had to cancel one weekend's plans.

So love love love to everyone, and thank you for being patient with me. Everyone cross your fingers that when I go back to my doctor at the end of the month and we try this process all over again it isn't nearly as exciting. This may not have been the right treatment for me, but I'm optimistic that the right one is out there and we're going to find it.


I believe in the healing power of love from friends and family.