Update

I am so, so happy. I feel like finally, things are becoming how I want them to be, and I am grateful for that. I appreciate the hard work it took to get to this moment, right now.

Things that are making me happy:
1. That so many of my friends, in a desperate act to bring my mood up when it starts to falter, have been posting Manatee-esque pictures/comments on my facebook wall. This one is my absolute favorite:

2. Finally being honest with myself in what I want- this is important, and probably most important.

3. Getting to spend time with people I haven't seen in forever, and catching up on their lives. I like getting reconnected, and it's fun to see how different people have changed. Although I still am not really ready for my friends to be getting married, happy as I am for them. 

4. Barbara and Nick (not my peer group, so not scary) are getting married! I'm excited for them, I'm excited to be a bridesmaid, I'm excited for all of it. 

5.  I am going back to Cleveland soon! In some ways, it's a little bittersweet to be leaving Franklin right now, but I'm ready to see my friends and get into my apartment. I want to go do things again. I know that's vague and ambiguous- but when I came home from Europe, I promised myself I would continue to live in the way I did there- consciously searching out life, rather than sitting at home on facebook. I've gotten much better with my facebook addiction (thank you google chrome, for stayfocusd), and I finally feel like I live in the real worl again. The trouble is, there is just so much more world in Cleveland! I'm not creative enough to think of fun things to do in Franklin anymore, but Cleveland makes it easy on me.